This past summer my local train tracks were getting an overhaul. There were complaints and supporters on both sides of the temporary closures. Neither side really mattered because the construction was necessary. According to those who cared for the tracks no major work had been done to it since it was first installed. The tracks were in desperate need of an upgrade and needed to be taken offline (no pun intended).
Like those tracks we sometimes need to be taken off line and upgraded. We need to be renewed, refreshed and revived. The only thing is that in order to get the upgrades we have to be willing to rip up all the old stuff, analyze it, and work on it. We have to be willing to disconnect from the things that are familiar and comfortable to us temporarily so that God can upgrade us.
The last few months I have been trying to upgrade myself but I was unwilling to rip up some old stuff in me first. I had to enlist the help of others outside of me to get to the bottom of my truth. Doing my annual self evaluation is not enough for where I am going. I have to get down to the nitty gritty. The stuff that I have been avoiding and have been locked away from all eyes and ears (including my own) has to be revealed so that I can move forward.
I am grateful for two of my new sisters in Christ who have helped me to dig deeper in some areas that I would rather leave buried under my old train tracks. I have learned and am learning so much more than I ever expected in this process. As I continue to deconstruct the person that I have become so that I can receive my new upgrades I pray that I stay open to this process.
I will come back and share some of the insights and lessons that I have learned once this process is done. In the mean time enjoy my ranting and life observations.
Just another day’s journey of discovering the true me. Peace.